Moving On: A Journey Through Grief

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Moving On: A Journey Through Grief
**Trigger warning: death and depression**

She sat alone in her small studio apartment, staring blankly at the wall. The TV was on, but she wasn't paying attention to what was happening. A year had passed since her husband had passed away, and she was still struggling to come to terms with it.

Every day was a battle. Getting out of bed, going to work, and seeing all the happy couples laughing and holding hands, it was all too much for her. She didn't want to leave the house, but she knew she had to keep going.

She thought about her husband, how he used to make her breakfast every morning, how he used to hold her tight while they watched a movie. She missed him so much it hurt.

Her phone rang, bringing her back to reality. It was her sister, calling to check up on her.

"Hey, how are you doing?" her sister asked.

"I'm fine," she replied, but her sister knew better.

"Listen, I know this has been tough for you, but you can't stay cooped up in your apartment forever. Why don't you come over for dinner tonight? Just you and me, we can catch up."

She thought about it for a moment, considering what her sister had said. She knew she couldn't go on like this forever, and her sister was right. She needed to step out of her comfort zone, even if it was just for one night.

"Okay," she said, "I'll come over."

She got dressed and made her way over to her sister's house. As she walked in, the smell of dinner filled her nostrils, comforting her. Her sister hugged her tightly, knowing how difficult this was for her.

They sat down to eat, and her sister asked her about work, trying to make small talk. She appreciated the effort, but she just couldn't bring herself to engage.

"I'm sorry," she said, "I'm just not feeling up to it."

Her sister nodded in understanding, and they sat there in silence for a little while. Suddenly, her sister stood up, walking over to the kitchen counter and picking up a picture.

"Do you remember this?" she asked, holding up a picture of her husband and her sister, laughing together at a BBQ.

She felt a pang in her chest, tears streaming down her face. She missed him so much, and seeing the two of them together was too much for her.

"I'm sorry," she said, her voice barely above a whisper. "I have to go."

She grabbed her bag and walked out the door, her sister following close behind.

"Please don't shut me out," her sister pleaded. "I know it's hard, but I'm here for you."

She turned around, tears in her eyes, and hugged her sister fiercely.

"I'm sorry," she said. "I'll try. I don't know how, but I'll try."

She went back to her apartment, feeling defeated. She didn't know how to move on from this. She didn't know how to keep going without her husband.

Days turned into weeks, and weeks turned into months. She went to therapy, she tried medication, but nothing seemed to help. She was drowning in her own sadness, unable to see a way out.

One day, she woke up feeling different. She couldn't explain it, but something had shifted. She got dressed and went for a walk, feeling the sun on her skin and the wind in her hair.

She went to the park, watching the children playing and the dogs chasing after each other. She sat on a bench and closed her eyes, letting the warmth of the sun seep into her bones.

As she sat there, she realized something. Her husband would have wanted her to keep going. He would have wanted her to find happiness again, to live her life to the fullest.

She knew it was going to be hard, but she also knew that it was possible. She stood up, feeling a sense of determination swelling inside her.

She was going to take control of her life, to live each day to the fullest. She would never forget her husband, but she would honor his memory by living in a way that would make him proud.

She walked out of the park, feeling lighter than she had in a long time. She wasn't sure what the future held, but for the first time in a long time, she was looking forward to finding out.